I will be 28 this year. I am Married. I have two beautiful kids. And I live with my in-laws, in their basement. In fact we have been living in this basement for almost 4 years. It was just the two of us, me and my husband, when we talked about it, prayed about, and spoke with his parents about it. We moved in with the "plan" of staying for only a year. My husband was going to focus on his computer modeling skills so he could get a job in that field.
Did I want to live with parents again (we lived with my parents our first year married so I could finish school)? No. But I told you we prayed about it. Crazy, I know! But we actually felt like it was the right thing to do. I still look back on that guidance for strength. The Lord knew our "plan" for one year wasn't going to work out, he had a different plan for us, as is usually the case.
So what happened?! We had a baby, and my husband realized he needed to go to school. My husband hates school. I know, "hate" is a strong work but it pretty much covers his feelings on the subject. But he is doing it, and I love him all the more for it! He works the early morning shift in a retail job, comes home too tired to do anything, and then tries to focus on something that he really doesn't like. All so he can someday support his family independently for the rest of his life. He must really love us!!
And this is our story. We are dirt dirt poor, living with our parents, and of course we decided to have another baby! I am learning all kinds of things about myself, mostly my faults, but also my strengths. I am usually careful, in writing and talking with people, to keep our living situation to myself. If they don't need to know, they don't need to know. Of course there are feelings of embarrassment and paranoia (wondering what "other people" think), but Heavenly Father is helping me to overcome this 'fear of man'.
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Oh my friend how I love you and your honesty. Thank you for putting it out there...I make so many "plans" and then the Lord tells me how it really is. I read a Christian book once and my favorite part of it was this line "Do you want to hear God laugh? Tell Him what you have planned for your life." I feel like this constantly. Keep it up listening to Him...it really is the best.
It is actually so nice to say it how it is! I'm really good at that with close friends one on one, but still learning to do that in the blogging world! You inspire me, Jamie :) I have many, many things that I feel more embarrassed about at times, our hand-me down furniture, my mismatched kids outfits that sometimes make it out the door in necessary moments and so on. The Lord often has different plans than what we anticipate, thanks for the reminder!
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