Fear in the Heart

I randomly came upon this - and I love it. Scary, yet reassuring. Things happen in this world and in our lives that we cannot control or wish away. But we can increase our faith, build our relationship with the Savior, and more fully understand the "eternal perspective".

I didn't think I had fear in my heart, watching this has shaken me a bit. I might not be in full panic mode but I'm not at the point of perfect calm either. Thankfully I have been working on this weakness without really knowing it. I've been experiencing a heart change, or even a conversion, toward becoming "an handmaid of the Lord". It's hard to put all my feeling into words (especially late at night when I should be sleeping). I have held my religion and testimony so close and tight, maybe mixing the word sacred with secret. But now I'm on a journey to open up and really become what the Lord knows I can be, with an eye single to His glory, my will swallowed up in His. I know Heavenly Father will make the best of me if I allow it and seek for it. I want to be my best because I want the best for my husband and children.

I don't want fear in my heart. I don't want fear in my kids hearts. So I will be consistent in trying my best, again and again and again. Building the wall of my faith one brick at a time, starting my kids in their own building process. Motherhood is a great responsibility. "Great" meaning heavy, as well as fantastic. It would invoke much more fear into my heart if I didn't know my Savior and Heavenly Father. Their love for me is great. Their faith in me is amazing. Their desire for me to succeed is encouraging. Like Elder Nelson, I am grateful for my Faith.