Self Evaluation

I have decided that I need to take stock of who I am. Maybe I'm a little late on the whole "self-discovery" thing, but everyone has there own time to blossom. I realize that I have been a very "go-with-the-flow" type of person, tending to cater my actions to fit the people and mood of the moment. I have been changing though, and feel like I am at a transition point. Like I need to make some decisions (soon) about my character, and my hopes for myself and my family, that will affect and maybe even guide me for years to come. I figure I had better prepare myself so I can go into this next 'phase' with more confidence. Plus, I feel strongly that this is something my Heavenly Father wants me to do, and He knows best.

I found this quote a long time ago while preparing for a lesson or a talk for a group of Young Women.

"You owe it to yourself to make an extra effort to discover, in every detail possible, who you really are - to discover your eternal potential in God's plan." - Elder Robert C. Oaks

Every time I read it I feel like I'm missing out on myself and my full potential. What an awful feeling! And how sad that it has taken me this long to make the extra effort in discovering myself and my divine potential as a daughter of God. Don't get me wrong, I am not starting from "square one". As a member of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints there are some amazing things that I know about myself and what I am capable of as a child of God. Maybe this is my way of tackling the next step on my staircase of life. The previous steps felt uniform and comfortable. This next one seems higher and more awkward, but worth the extra climb.

I'm blogging about it because it creates accountability for me to stay focused, and I need focus. Maybe I'll help someone along the way and that would be awesome. Maybe I'll offend someone, which wouldn't be awesome. Let me be clear in saying that I am doing this for me. My thoughts, my experiences, my opinions. I don't mean to offend or make anyone feel uncomfortable, but I am hesitant to apologize for anything I might share. My goal is to be totally honest with myself, about myself. I don't know how long this will take but I'm thinking months. I won't be posting every day, and I will still write about normal things every now and then. I guess this is just a heads up to whoever cares, and a beginning to my journey of Self.